It was both a relief and a concern to find the source of the mold. The relief was knowing where it was coming from and the concern was: How the hell do I get rid of it?
When chronic illness becomes a new kind of normal, it also becomes a cruel existence, one in which pain is a constant torture and exhaustion is as frequent as breathing.
I could see all kinds of things that I had missed when I was stuck in my bed. I could feel the breeze swirling around me; I could see hummingbirds buzzing around a tree branch above the roof. I didn't realize it until later, but it was the first time I had been outside in two years.
It seemed like something that could easily sound inauthentic or fake, the thought of which made me cringe, but in the end he not only did justice to my writing, he managed to accurately convey the struggle of me trying to speak.
I'm not proud to say that it took getting sick and losing some of my privilege for me to grasp how fortunate I was as a healthy person. But it is one of the few good things that has come from my poor health.
Have you ever had something go wrong and then it snowballed into a million other things that went wrong? If so, you probably know what I'm feeling right now. You may even know a variation of the anger I feel and how it has led me to do and say things that have probably made... Continue Reading →
I just stood there like nothing was wrong, hoping no one would notice. But EVERYONE noticed. Every player on the field was staring at me, and although I've since blocked out their laughter, I'm sure they were laughing at me. How could you not laugh at something like that?
I hate New Year's resolutions. Why? I don't know, I get why people make them, and even more so why people abandon them, but has anyone ever actually followed through with a New Year's resolution? I imagine someone has -- some poor, neurotic soul who is actually a robot, and not at all human. Even... Continue Reading →